I think I picked the absolutely most perfect book to start off my reading for this month. Being that it is October, horror and thriller novels are the only ones that I thought would do for the theme. The first chapter was devastating, the couple having lost all hope and having decided to act on the only solution they could think of. The second chapter was disgusting, horrifying, and brutal. I was appalled and intrigued by what was to come if those first few chapters were only the prelude of upcoming misery and terror. What an opening, I was almost dreading what I was going to be reading if the first few pages grossed me out that much. The author was correct when they stated that this book was not for the faint of heart, I could tell that much was true only twenty pages in.
The first few chapters are indeed the most brutal, in my opinion. But I found myself saying ‘gross’ or ‘ew’ out loud several more times. I was more vocal while reading this book than I have been in a long time. This book literally has all the triggers, it was in turns stomach churning, depressing, violent, graphic, and hopeless. The entire time I was reading it I was thinking that there is no way anything good was going to happen to our lead character or any of the characters in the story. I was honestly shocked with the outcome, because throughout the entire story it just felt like things were leading towards a particularly grim resolution. I found myself wondering if the author was in an ok place when they wrote this, because it seems like only a very troubled mind could have come up with many of the scenes. You will know what I am talking about if you ever decide to pick this up. I would suggest that you yourself be in an ok place mentally when you read this because it can be off putting, and that’s putting it nicely. And maybe don’t read it right before bed. I didn’t have nightmares exactly, just very unusual dreams, when I did read it right before going to sleep. The story just fills you with an awful desperation in your soul along with feelings of dread for its entirety. I don’t know if I will ever be able to find another book like this. If you have suggestions, please let me know! I think that as of right now, this is officially the most disturbing book that I have ever read. Is it sinister that I want to try to find something to top it?
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